We will always be the one...

It's really hard sometimes to realize what I want in life. It is so hard for me to admit to myself things, be it good or bad. I had a bad night last night. I know that and I accept that. But today, I woke up, went to work, and didn't really think about what i was feeling last night too much, with the exception of a conversation online.

It's now getting close to bed, and I don't feel and haven't really felt the way i had last night at all today. I guess I know how to handle it, or at least know how not to handle it. I called a close friend before bed last night, and told her about how i felt. And she was so nice about everything. The moment was a little scary and she reminded me just how much I have changed the last 2 years. That meant a lot, and I'm glad to see the changes myself.

There is a quote in Juno that i adore. Juno asks her Dad about meeting someone and how will she know when she has find the one. I relate this quote to my waiting for real love and I also think that friendship should go by this same montra:

"Mac MacGuff: In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you
for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have
you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of
person that's worth sticking with."

I don't need my friends to think the sun shines out of my ass (*insert chuckle*), but it's nice to see when they are there for you for the good and the bad. I don't have too too much bad these days, but I hope they still love me just the same on my off days and that they know they are the ones that get me through the bad.

I'm not perfect, I'm not the best, but all I can say is that I try to be a good friend. I try to be as positive and happy as possible. I really do. And all I can do is try and give all the love and support that I can. And just hope for the same in return...