This song is beauty and hate to me all rolled into one.

I have not hated the world like I do right now in almost 1.5 -2 years. I never thought that the feelings, the hurt, the anger, and everything with it would ever come back as strong as they were the first time. I did fear they would come back one day, but not anytime soon or with deja vu' happenings. And it's not just by one event, one person, one comment, but a combination of so many things in a short amount of time.

I just cried a little while ago. Just sobbing. I was driving, and driving while crying isn't a good idea. but i didn't want to stop. I didn't want to go anywhere, because i felt like i had nowhere to go. I still don't feel like I have anywhere to go.

I know right now that emotions are high, it's been an exhausting weekend and it's finally all catching up to me. I think...i mean i know I can handle everything better now. I'm older, wiser, and i know what not to do to fix it. knowing how to fix it is another story.

They say that you cannot let anyone make you feel inferior with out your consent.
I didn't give my consent, but why do i still feel so terrible?