Im pushing an elephant up the stairs
Im tossing up punchlines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground
Im breaking through
Im bending spoons
Im keeping flowers in full bloom
Im looking for answers from the great beyond
I want the hummingbirds, the dancing bears
Sweetest dreams of you
Look into the stars
Look into the moon
Im looking for answers from the great, answers from the great beyond
Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Blame us cause we are, who we...
I feel like i've been thinking more about life then I have been in awhile. granted, i'm always thinking, but sometimes i think i let my mind get the best of me. I let songs, movies, pictures, sights, and other things take me back to somewhere i haven't been in awhile.
Today, while i was in bed trying to get over this mysterious illness, i opened up my fortune cookie from the asian restaurant down the street. it said, "now is the time to make new friends." I was a little taken back by it. I'm one of those people that saves their fortunes, that thinks that no matter what they say, to an extent they are real.
I've just been reliving the last 6 years in my head the last week. 6 years is a long amount of time to run through your head in a short amount of time, but i've had a variety of different triggers (occurances?) happen.
I don't think I would go back to any of those years, not that i didn't enjoy (most of them) at the time. In my heart, I know there is more. I keep telling myself that, but I can't fully say i believe in it. But there is more.
To an extent, that fortune may be right. I may not need to make all new friends leaving behind those i know, but i need to make new experiences and continue in this life that I'm leading. I need to fight to not become some stagnant being in a mundayne life that is routine and lacks variety.
I hope that I can keep moving my life in a way that inspires me, that brings me an immense amount of happiness, and i can contribute more to this world that surrounds me.
that is one thing that has remained the same these last 6+ years.... all i've ever wanted is to just be happy.
blame us cause we are who we are,
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose you would go
i'd already learned enough to know that....
Today, while i was in bed trying to get over this mysterious illness, i opened up my fortune cookie from the asian restaurant down the street. it said, "now is the time to make new friends." I was a little taken back by it. I'm one of those people that saves their fortunes, that thinks that no matter what they say, to an extent they are real.
I've just been reliving the last 6 years in my head the last week. 6 years is a long amount of time to run through your head in a short amount of time, but i've had a variety of different triggers (occurances?) happen.
I don't think I would go back to any of those years, not that i didn't enjoy (most of them) at the time. In my heart, I know there is more. I keep telling myself that, but I can't fully say i believe in it. But there is more.
To an extent, that fortune may be right. I may not need to make all new friends leaving behind those i know, but i need to make new experiences and continue in this life that I'm leading. I need to fight to not become some stagnant being in a mundayne life that is routine and lacks variety.
I hope that I can keep moving my life in a way that inspires me, that brings me an immense amount of happiness, and i can contribute more to this world that surrounds me.
that is one thing that has remained the same these last 6+ years.... all i've ever wanted is to just be happy.
blame us cause we are who we are,
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose you would go
i'd already learned enough to know that....
Saturday, January 10, 2009
bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum.... WHOA OHHH
i love this song. It puts a huge smile on my face & spring in my step.
this video makes it 80 times better.
this video makes it 80 times better.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Days that are over
Will not continue to last
If you try to construct the past
Today, I've been playing all my Sondre Lerche albums. I've been a fan since high school, and I used to listen to them quite often (his norweigian english is such a great example of winter music).
While getting ready for bed, it's made me ponder about life (something i do quite often). I think back to all the times in college to when i would listen to sondre so much; where i was, who i was with, what was going on in my life at the time, how old i was, ect...
It made me think about how, I don't think I ever saw myself or imagined I would be where I was today. You may think, well, you aren't really anywhere. But I am. It makes me think of the quote "If you ever want to make God laugh, tell him your plans for the future..." People that have 5 to 10 year goals make me giggle.
I've always been pretty vague when it comes to "dreams;" I've always just had this overwhelming desire to just be utterly happy when i "grow up." It's not that i lived this horribly depressing childhood/adolescence (not that it didn't have it's fair share of heart aches). I guess I can see myself happy by doing a lot of things, and that is something that isn't easily able to be described to others.
This desire of happiness is the main reason i got involved in "the music business." As I got older and older, music was the only constant thing that i loved through out my later years in life. The great thing about music is that there are so many facets that you can get involved in. You don't have to be musically gifted.... you just have to find a job that's doing something "tolerable" or something you enjoy doing.
I used to believe that doing what "your passion was" would end to you at one point beginning to hate what you once loved. I guess it works out that my passion is happiness.... because then i cannot get burned out with music and concerts....
oh dear...i've gotten distracted. this is the pitfalls of working too hard. your brain doesn't think about other stuff (i.e. life and the events surrounding it)
So now i lay down to get ready to go to sleep again, to wake up and face the day. To brace myself to take on the tasks of work, the tasks of being "an adult"; But i'm looking and I'm still striving for that dream of being just utterly happy... and one day, I realize just what that is...
While getting ready for bed, it's made me ponder about life (something i do quite often). I think back to all the times in college to when i would listen to sondre so much; where i was, who i was with, what was going on in my life at the time, how old i was, ect...
It made me think about how, I don't think I ever saw myself or imagined I would be where I was today. You may think, well, you aren't really anywhere. But I am. It makes me think of the quote "If you ever want to make God laugh, tell him your plans for the future..." People that have 5 to 10 year goals make me giggle.
I've always been pretty vague when it comes to "dreams;" I've always just had this overwhelming desire to just be utterly happy when i "grow up." It's not that i lived this horribly depressing childhood/adolescence (not that it didn't have it's fair share of heart aches). I guess I can see myself happy by doing a lot of things, and that is something that isn't easily able to be described to others.
This desire of happiness is the main reason i got involved in "the music business." As I got older and older, music was the only constant thing that i loved through out my later years in life. The great thing about music is that there are so many facets that you can get involved in. You don't have to be musically gifted.... you just have to find a job that's doing something "tolerable" or something you enjoy doing.
I used to believe that doing what "your passion was" would end to you at one point beginning to hate what you once loved. I guess it works out that my passion is happiness.... because then i cannot get burned out with music and concerts....
oh dear...i've gotten distracted. this is the pitfalls of working too hard. your brain doesn't think about other stuff (i.e. life and the events surrounding it)
So now i lay down to get ready to go to sleep again, to wake up and face the day. To brace myself to take on the tasks of work, the tasks of being "an adult"; But i'm looking and I'm still striving for that dream of being just utterly happy... and one day, I realize just what that is...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
She stands anticipating...to understand you...
It's officially the start of Fall, thus it's October. Been pretty busy lately post ike. House guests, destroyed city, work, and getting ready for the opening of HOB.
I just returned home from my 5th acl. It wasn't the best, it wasn't the worst, but I had some good times. If anything, I came back with a new clarity. I came back with things a little bit more figured out. Everyone that was with me has meaned something greatly to me in my life at one point or another. Some of my best friends were on this trip. I ran into other new friends and old friends along the way.
I realized or came to realize it more just how much I believe in things happening for a reason. And one day, it makes sense. People are the same way. They come in and out of your life, and sometimes right away you don't realize why they are here, but then it hits you. And you couldn't imagine them not being in your life at this point.
And for that, you are filled with great happiness. And if there is one thing that everyone in this world deserves, it's a little happiness and smiles....
off subject remark-----> don't go see the movie "Towelhead"; despite being written by Alan Ball, it was HORRIBLE.
I just returned home from my 5th acl. It wasn't the best, it wasn't the worst, but I had some good times. If anything, I came back with a new clarity. I came back with things a little bit more figured out. Everyone that was with me has meaned something greatly to me in my life at one point or another. Some of my best friends were on this trip. I ran into other new friends and old friends along the way.
I realized or came to realize it more just how much I believe in things happening for a reason. And one day, it makes sense. People are the same way. They come in and out of your life, and sometimes right away you don't realize why they are here, but then it hits you. And you couldn't imagine them not being in your life at this point.
And for that, you are filled with great happiness. And if there is one thing that everyone in this world deserves, it's a little happiness and smiles....
off subject remark-----> don't go see the movie "Towelhead"; despite being written by Alan Ball, it was HORRIBLE.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Yesterday was a little frazzled at work. Long meetings in the morning, and then just some tedious work to do in the afternoons. So on the way home from work, I decided to stop and get a nice bottle of wine to drink at my house with dinner. When I walked in the door, I was plesantly suprised to see that we were going to be having a large family dinner, and that my family had already busted out a bottle of wine before I got there. So we all just opened up bottles and were just catching up on the days activites.
It was one of the best evenings I had had with them since the 3.5 months that I have been in Houston. Amazing conversation with everyone, laughter, kind banter.
Today, I went to the astros game. I was lucky enough to be given suite tickets (schweeeeet tickets). good friends, beers, $1 hot dogs, and 33,000 neighbors joining together for good times was a lovely change of pace for the evening.
I have some pretty lovely friends and family...
It was one of the best evenings I had had with them since the 3.5 months that I have been in Houston. Amazing conversation with everyone, laughter, kind banter.
Today, I went to the astros game. I was lucky enough to be given suite tickets (schweeeeet tickets). good friends, beers, $1 hot dogs, and 33,000 neighbors joining together for good times was a lovely change of pace for the evening.
I have some pretty lovely friends and family...
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
tri-colored goldfish...
i haven't remembered a dream in weeks.
I remembered last nights.
It had many strange things in it.
But it also had something really amazing in it.
And that makes me smile, and that brings me some happiness to these weary days...
I remembered last nights.
It had many strange things in it.
But it also had something really amazing in it.
And that makes me smile, and that brings me some happiness to these weary days...
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