I feel like i've been thinking more about life then I have been in awhile. granted, i'm always thinking, but sometimes i think i let my mind get the best of me. I let songs, movies, pictures, sights, and other things take me back to somewhere i haven't been in awhile.
Today, while i was in bed trying to get over this mysterious illness, i opened up my fortune cookie from the asian restaurant down the street. it said, "now is the time to make new friends." I was a little taken back by it. I'm one of those people that saves their fortunes, that thinks that no matter what they say, to an extent they are real.
I've just been reliving the last 6 years in my head the last week. 6 years is a long amount of time to run through your head in a short amount of time, but i've had a variety of different triggers (occurances?) happen.
I don't think I would go back to any of those years, not that i didn't enjoy (most of them) at the time. In my heart, I know there is more. I keep telling myself that, but I can't fully say i believe in it. But there is more.
To an extent, that fortune may be right. I may not need to make all new friends leaving behind those i know, but i need to make new experiences and continue in this life that I'm leading. I need to fight to not become some stagnant being in a mundayne life that is routine and lacks variety.
I hope that I can keep moving my life in a way that inspires me, that brings me an immense amount of happiness, and i can contribute more to this world that surrounds me.
that is one thing that has remained the same these last 6+ years.... all i've ever wanted is to just be happy.
blame us cause we are who we are,
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose you would go
i'd already learned enough to know that....
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