where does the good go...

So much has been happening in the last week. A lot has changed for my friends and thus in fact has had an impact on myself.

with that topic, it's funny how life changes all of the sudden. I feel like at this age and point in my life, I am just trying to "figure out myself"; figure out what i want out of life, who i want to spend my life with, what i want to be doing with my life, and how i'm supposed to do it.

tuesday, I got thrown for a loop; a spoke in the wheel, no path to lead; a bridge not yet built; whatever you want to call it.

at first, i thought FUCK. this is not what i wanted, this wasn't what i was planning for... but then i kind of got to thinking about life. And I realized that change is good (though we don't like it, we have to accept it because it's not going anywhere). That life is like knowledge. One can never have too much of it, one can never not be learning. Why would one want to be ignorant enough to never want to learn anything new and valuable? With that said, who would want to not experience new life adventures that came their way, just because they weren't planned? If we planned everything, I think life would be a lot more boring then it already can be at times.

I guess I'm just looking forward to figuring out life some more, discovering live, finding happiness. I don't have any better of an idea of what that will be, but maybe i'm not supposed. Maybe i'm just supposed to LIVE and everything else will just fall into place...