Days that are over Will not continue to last If you try to construct the past

Today, I've been playing all my Sondre Lerche albums. I've been a fan since high school, and I used to listen to them quite often (his norweigian english is such a great example of winter music).

While getting ready for bed, it's made me ponder about life (something i do quite often). I think back to all the times in college to when i would listen to sondre so much; where i was, who i was with, what was going on in my life at the time, how old i was, ect...

It made me think about how, I don't think I ever saw myself or imagined I would be where I was today. You may think, well, you aren't really anywhere. But I am. It makes me think of the quote "If you ever want to make God laugh, tell him your plans for the future..." People that have 5 to 10 year goals make me giggle.

I've always been pretty vague when it comes to "dreams;" I've always just had this overwhelming desire to just be utterly happy when i "grow up." It's not that i lived this horribly depressing childhood/adolescence (not that it didn't have it's fair share of heart aches). I guess I can see myself happy by doing a lot of things, and that is something that isn't easily able to be described to others.

This desire of happiness is the main reason i got involved in "the music business." As I got older and older, music was the only constant thing that i loved through out my later years in life. The great thing about music is that there are so many facets that you can get involved in. You don't have to be musically gifted.... you just have to find a job that's doing something "tolerable" or something you enjoy doing.

I used to believe that doing what "your passion was" would end to you at one point beginning to hate what you once loved. I guess it works out that my passion is happiness.... because then i cannot get burned out with music and concerts....

oh dear...i've gotten distracted. this is the pitfalls of working too hard. your brain doesn't think about other stuff (i.e. life and the events surrounding it)

So now i lay down to get ready to go to sleep again, to wake up and face the day. To brace myself to take on the tasks of work, the tasks of being "an adult"; But i'm looking and I'm still striving for that dream of being just utterly happy... and one day, I realize just what that is...