we've got eyes that leave us in places we don't see...

my favorite song on feel good lost. my favorite instrumental song of theirs.

So I spent the weekend w/ the gonzales. it was wonderful. I got to see some sully, some matt d., and a little em. though the four + hour way sucks balls to drive alone, it was well worth the trip. I wish I would have been able to see Amanda, but hopefully next time around.

So this weekend was the start of getting to see my friends for four weekends in a row. CRAZY. It will be a good and bad thing. I miss them like crazy, but the overload of them will make me miss them a lot. But that is the life of being a grown up.

Today, the whole way back from FW, i took pictures of the scenery. Lot of pictures of overpasses, trees, wildflowers, the giant sam houston in huntsville, and then downtown houston. I forget just how much i love pictures like that. Pictures that you can just get lost in, imagining yourself in them or what was going on around the picture at the time.

only five more days....

I can't close my eyes and make it go away...

I had a wonderful and fun weekend with stephanie. With lots of friend time (her, sara, the tonys, and ms. alysha).
Spent all day Sunday watching the Lword.
I've been to two very fun fundraisers since Saturday.
I had a phone interview today, which will hopefully become a better situation to what it is.

I saw two very good shows Monday & Tuesday Night.

Monday: Tokyo Police Club & Eagle Seagull

Tuesday: Saul Williams

karma.

i got into a car wreck tonight. it sucked.

what you know you have and what you think you want is never perfect

thing i like about today:
-laughing all day at work
-having money to pay the bills
-getting to work out
-buying dinner for my fam at pho21
-catching up with friends while at work
-looking forward to tokyo police club & saul williams next week
-listening to jenny lewis & the watson twins

what i don't like about today:
-arguing with people i care about
-having to redo a project
-worrying about love ones because they are so sick.
-missing my friends
-not being perfect. that sounds silly. I don't try to be perfect. I just try not mess up. I hate the feeling of messing up. I don't mean at with work, but messing up with life.

A very good family friend passed away this afternoon. I have known her my whole life. She taught my brother in Beaumont, and she was a close neighbor in sour lake. She was a swim team mom, a soccer mom, a band mom, she and i would talk and have drinks together at new year's eve bonfires and 4th of july bonfires. I can honestly say she was one of the most incredible women I've ever known. She had a faith that never seemed to dwindle, a family that loved her so much and thought so highly of her, and she had a heart and kindness that I haven't seen in many. After all these years, after I've changed so much the last 5 years since I've left sour lake, she always recognized me and always gave me a big hug and truly seemed to be excited to see me. She had this ability to make anyone feel loved the instant they saw her.

I cannot imagine Mr. Duff, Amy, Ali, and Christopher having to start living in this world without their wife and mother. She was a truly remarkable woman. She was a woman that I strive to even be half as comparable to, and a person we should all strive to be like. She will be someone very missed, but I can already tell you I've been seeing her through the life and actions of her children for years upon years now.

all my love goes to ms. theresa and to the family and extended family of the duffels....

when is this movie going to come out on dvd....

I'm bored at work. listening to the juno soundtrack. Enjoy.

The Kink's "A Well Respected Man"


Kimya Dawson "Tire Swing"


Matt the Hople "All the Young Dudes"


Cat Power "Sea of Love"


Michael Cera & Ellen Page "Anyone Else Buy You"



I like listening to these songs and thinking about the people it reminds me.

i carry your heart within my heart...

It was a great easter. Chatt came in last night to hang out, so he watched me back cupcakes, then we grabbed some pho 21, then we just hung around the house watching tennis with my aunt and the office.

This morning was when i started cooking my easter brunch feast. I made chocolate chip pancakes, bacon, eggs benedict, bourbon beef tenderloin, croissants, roasted asparagus, the cupcakes from last night, and chocolate chip cookies. It was more food then needed, and though I planned on just cooking it all myself, everyone there chipped in which made the meal and the day even better. Uncle Tom grilled the tenderloin, vicki and april helped with the asparagus, and chatt helped me fry eggs. And the whole morning we drank mimosas.

After lunch, Chatt and I drove down to Kemah and the bay. it was a beautiful day. He convinced me to ride the boardwalk bullet. It was good fun. Then...nap till now. Now I'm about to make myself go back to sleep in preperation for the week.

It was great to spend the day with family and a great friend. I have a lot a head of me in getting used to Houston being my new home (which hopefully it will turn out into). But I feel I'm off to a somewhat good start. I'm so glad to have Chatt so close. He is a great friend, that I missed tremedously the last semester of school. So to build this new chapter of my life with an old friend, it feels pretty good....