i was walkin' with a ghost...

So I am 23 now. I think this was the oddest birthday I have ever had. I guess this what happens when you get older. It was not a bad birthday, it was just different. I guess that my life is different now.

I am not in college anymore, and that to me is still very odd. I have not fully gotten used to the thought of how I won't be going back. Ever. But I don't think that is a bad thing. I'm so excited at the possibilities of what is to come. New adventures, new people, new friends, old friends in houston, and new secrets and things that bring a smile to my face...

Here is to next step.

I've been listening to this album for about 3 or 4 years. And it is still one of my favorite albums. It's one of those that you can listen to having a good day or bad. Tonight, this song is one of the most beautiful songs that I could come across.



Yeah, you come to mind

my fake....

And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time.
Oh, oh.

every now and then I get like this....

Pete Yorn- "all at once"
(try not to let the cunt yelling ruin the song for you.)

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all at once
i bring my silence
all at once
there is no more hiding
and all he wants
is to show us how it feels...




all liars in the backroom,
watch them all go down,
they can tell you what you want to hear,
but they will never stick around

I feel that my luck could change...

Everything in its Right Place


This is someone's video from the Radiohead show I was at last night. This was one of my favorite songs that they did.

Here is their set-list from last night's show:
1. 15 Step
2. Bodysnatchers
3. Lucky
4. Morning Bell
5. Nude
6. Pyramid Song
7. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi
8. The Gloaming
9. National Anthem
10. Faust Arp
11. Videotape
12. Optimistic
13. Where I End and You Begin
14. Reckoner
15. Everything In Its Right Place
16. All I Need
17. There There

Encore:
Jigsaw Falling Into Place
House of Cards
Climbing Up The Walls
Planet Telex
Street Spirit (fade out)

Encore 2:
You And Whose Army?
Idioteque


It was an amazing show. I'm so glad that I got to share it with my friends. I got a little teary eyed during lucky, a huge personal favorite. Magical, mind-blowing, and visually spectacular....and beautiful. I guess that is the best way to describe it.

There's a pretty, young thing in front of you...and she's real pretty, and she's real into you...

so much has happened this week.
good.
bad.
horrible.
the worst.

But I guess I got through the cusp. above the cusp? I'm starting to see more, I've got my eyes open, glasses on, and I'm just trying to look on, look ahead. I just want to learn from my mistakes and work very hard not to repeat them.

Tomorrow, my friends come to town. Saturday, my friends come to town. And though they aren't necessarily coming to see me, I'm pretty excited to get to see them and my friends living in Houston now.

Saturday, Radiohead comes to town. Radiohead with 15 of my friends? I can't even fathom it.

I've been listening to this song all week. I love it. Kind of depressing lyrics, but it's hard not to dance and smile to it. I have a great memory with this song in my past. Now, it has a whole new meaning.

So I went up to college station on friday night. I had a prior engagement and went up to see some friends graduate and just to visit. short, but nice. It's nice to see old faces.

Spent the evening last night with the extended hansens. my little matty is all grown up.

Instead of going out last night, decided to call it a night early. Thank goodness I got home early.
I was sleeping and I work up to a storm. Just thought it was a regular, but then i heard these noises
turns out it was a tornado.

a little frightening. not going to lie. I thought it was just the tree next to my window. turns out it was the tree and a combination of baseball size hell. Felt a little like the sound of music, when the children were frightened by the weather. I tried to just hide under my covers, but the noise was horrible. luckily it did not last that long. no damage to my car.

but what a strange sight to see of piles or hail (ice) all over the yard in the middle of may.