Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
where does the good go...
So much has been happening in the last week. A lot has changed for my friends and thus in fact has had an impact on myself.
with that topic, it's funny how life changes all of the sudden. I feel like at this age and point in my life, I am just trying to "figure out myself"; figure out what i want out of life, who i want to spend my life with, what i want to be doing with my life, and how i'm supposed to do it.
tuesday, I got thrown for a loop; a spoke in the wheel, no path to lead; a bridge not yet built; whatever you want to call it.
at first, i thought FUCK. this is not what i wanted, this wasn't what i was planning for... but then i kind of got to thinking about life. And I realized that change is good (though we don't like it, we have to accept it because it's not going anywhere). That life is like knowledge. One can never have too much of it, one can never not be learning. Why would one want to be ignorant enough to never want to learn anything new and valuable? With that said, who would want to not experience new life adventures that came their way, just because they weren't planned? If we planned everything, I think life would be a lot more boring then it already can be at times.
I guess I'm just looking forward to figuring out life some more, discovering live, finding happiness. I don't have any better of an idea of what that will be, but maybe i'm not supposed. Maybe i'm just supposed to LIVE and everything else will just fall into place...
with that topic, it's funny how life changes all of the sudden. I feel like at this age and point in my life, I am just trying to "figure out myself"; figure out what i want out of life, who i want to spend my life with, what i want to be doing with my life, and how i'm supposed to do it.
tuesday, I got thrown for a loop; a spoke in the wheel, no path to lead; a bridge not yet built; whatever you want to call it.
at first, i thought FUCK. this is not what i wanted, this wasn't what i was planning for... but then i kind of got to thinking about life. And I realized that change is good (though we don't like it, we have to accept it because it's not going anywhere). That life is like knowledge. One can never have too much of it, one can never not be learning. Why would one want to be ignorant enough to never want to learn anything new and valuable? With that said, who would want to not experience new life adventures that came their way, just because they weren't planned? If we planned everything, I think life would be a lot more boring then it already can be at times.
I guess I'm just looking forward to figuring out life some more, discovering live, finding happiness. I don't have any better of an idea of what that will be, but maybe i'm not supposed. Maybe i'm just supposed to LIVE and everything else will just fall into place...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Im pushing an elephant up the stairs
Im tossing up punchlines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground
Im breaking through
Im bending spoons
Im keeping flowers in full bloom
Im looking for answers from the great beyond
I want the hummingbirds, the dancing bears
Sweetest dreams of you
Look into the stars
Look into the moon
Im looking for answers from the great, answers from the great beyond
Im tossing up punchlines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground
Im breaking through
Im bending spoons
Im keeping flowers in full bloom
Im looking for answers from the great beyond
I want the hummingbirds, the dancing bears
Sweetest dreams of you
Look into the stars
Look into the moon
Im looking for answers from the great, answers from the great beyond
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Blame us cause we are, who we...
I feel like i've been thinking more about life then I have been in awhile. granted, i'm always thinking, but sometimes i think i let my mind get the best of me. I let songs, movies, pictures, sights, and other things take me back to somewhere i haven't been in awhile.
Today, while i was in bed trying to get over this mysterious illness, i opened up my fortune cookie from the asian restaurant down the street. it said, "now is the time to make new friends." I was a little taken back by it. I'm one of those people that saves their fortunes, that thinks that no matter what they say, to an extent they are real.
I've just been reliving the last 6 years in my head the last week. 6 years is a long amount of time to run through your head in a short amount of time, but i've had a variety of different triggers (occurances?) happen.
I don't think I would go back to any of those years, not that i didn't enjoy (most of them) at the time. In my heart, I know there is more. I keep telling myself that, but I can't fully say i believe in it. But there is more.
To an extent, that fortune may be right. I may not need to make all new friends leaving behind those i know, but i need to make new experiences and continue in this life that I'm leading. I need to fight to not become some stagnant being in a mundayne life that is routine and lacks variety.
I hope that I can keep moving my life in a way that inspires me, that brings me an immense amount of happiness, and i can contribute more to this world that surrounds me.
that is one thing that has remained the same these last 6+ years.... all i've ever wanted is to just be happy.
blame us cause we are who we are,
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose you would go
i'd already learned enough to know that....
Today, while i was in bed trying to get over this mysterious illness, i opened up my fortune cookie from the asian restaurant down the street. it said, "now is the time to make new friends." I was a little taken back by it. I'm one of those people that saves their fortunes, that thinks that no matter what they say, to an extent they are real.
I've just been reliving the last 6 years in my head the last week. 6 years is a long amount of time to run through your head in a short amount of time, but i've had a variety of different triggers (occurances?) happen.
I don't think I would go back to any of those years, not that i didn't enjoy (most of them) at the time. In my heart, I know there is more. I keep telling myself that, but I can't fully say i believe in it. But there is more.
To an extent, that fortune may be right. I may not need to make all new friends leaving behind those i know, but i need to make new experiences and continue in this life that I'm leading. I need to fight to not become some stagnant being in a mundayne life that is routine and lacks variety.
I hope that I can keep moving my life in a way that inspires me, that brings me an immense amount of happiness, and i can contribute more to this world that surrounds me.
that is one thing that has remained the same these last 6+ years.... all i've ever wanted is to just be happy.
blame us cause we are who we are,
hate us cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose you would go
i'd already learned enough to know that....
Sunday, February 1, 2009
the charm around your neck....
I've always been a fan of when music & film merge into one.
this is one of my most favorite movie scenes in any wes anderson film and in movies in general.
intense? yes. morbid? but the images and song both just give this haunting feeling and creation. It's reality, life isn't that great all the time. And I think this scene reminds us that.
to enjoy the scene sans blood, sans intensity; please enjoy this archived footage and complete song:
this is one of my most favorite movie scenes in any wes anderson film and in movies in general.
intense? yes. morbid? but the images and song both just give this haunting feeling and creation. It's reality, life isn't that great all the time. And I think this scene reminds us that.
to enjoy the scene sans blood, sans intensity; please enjoy this archived footage and complete song:
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